So, What's The Plan? Self Love, Ohhhh YEAH!

Oh---Am I supposed to have a plan? Alright, I suppose that's the point here right? The plan is to pay attention in the world. That was my first week's homework. Trying to get rid of the "There's nobody out there" mentality. David Wygant does his best to get us to see that anywhere you go there's the potential to meet people. We get so caught up in doing what we have to do that we don't pay attention. And in my case, even when I do pay attention (it is difficult for me not to notice a man I find attractive) I pretend that either he isn't there or I'm not. What can I say, my SHY personality rears it's boring head. For years I go out of my way NOT to make eye contact, and if it accidentally happens I look away in world record breaking time! But I've written about that, check out my first blog.

I haven't been able to do as much observing as I would have liked in the past week. Unfortunately I haven't been feeling very well this last week, but when I have-I am paying attention. Even when I was in the ER I not only noticed all of the extremely good looking people working in the hospital, I kept telling them too. I couldn't help it I felt I like was in an episode of Grey's Anatomy. But still, saying so is not something the old me would have done. But if felt good, and I could tell that they all felt good about it too. And I'm not just talking the men, the women were all very attractive and I had to tell them.

Another one of David's big points is Self Love. No, not the self love you do in private (although that is fun) he says what other people say and what you've heard time and time again.

You can't love someone else unless you love yourself first.

That makes sense right? Of course it does, it always has.

But how do you know if you love yourself enough? Think about it. Do you know how much you love yourself and if you're at the place where you can love someone else? Hmmmmmm. I've always wondered. I thought to myself, "Well, I love myself. I think I'm a pretty damn cool person. I have things to offer. I have things to share. I have things to give. I want to let someone into my life and I want to be in someone else's too."

Nope, that's not it.

David explains that self love means that you have a crush on yourself-everyday. That you find yourself so fascinating, so interesting, so damn wonderful. Yeah, really. It might sound conceded, but that's not it at all. We need to either feel that way about ourselves or do whatever it takes to feel that way about ourselves. If we don't see ourselves that way, why would anyone else? At least anyone who we would consider.

SELF LOVE? The answer is yes, I do love myself. I do love my life, I do have a lot in my life that I'm very happy to have. My life is full. I thoroughly enjoy my alone time, my time with my son, my time with my friends, my time at work. I have things in my life that make me happy, interests that I pursue.

I'm not perfect-far from it. I have bad habits, and I have made mistakes. But I'm human, and with every year that passes I'm better, I'm wiser, I'm more patient, I'm more forgiving, I'm less selfish and more selfless. I work on inward and outward expectations.

And when it comes to what I want, that's easy. I just want to be happy. And I am.

~V~