Eternal Sunshine

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind

It is one of my favorite movies. I've watched it several times, I own the DVD. And probably for most of you owning a DVD isn't a big deal, but I'm not a DVD buying fanatic. I only own about 15-if that.

Anyway, it is a really good movie, a wonderful concept and needless to say-a ridiculous cast. It is one of my very favorite Jim Carrey movies and I've loved Kate Winslet since Titanic. I thought she was beyond beautiful-not to mention her character was smart, with the perfect blend of independence and naivete that we all love and admire. Oh, and at the time my mother was not the only person who told me that I looked like her. Of course I thought my mother was just being my mother--somehow reading my mind-knowing that I thought KW was the most beautiful woman ever. But I heard it a lot. It was strange because, even though I took it as a wonderful compliment (yes, I was taught to take a compliment) I thought anyone who told me that was insane.

But, that's besides the point.

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind is an amazing movie.

Love. Love is good, love is complicated, love is not perfect, love is not complete, love leaves you needy, love flat out fucks you up. Love will grow, love will fade-but you can never forget.

Or can you?

Well, in this movie you can. You can go to Lacuna and you can have any person (or pet) deleted from your memory.

What a WONDERFUL CONCEPT! Hell, I know that there have been more troubled romances and painful pet losses for me to keep Lacuna in business all on my own!

But what would that do to me?

If you've read my previous blogs, especially the one titled, "YOU ARE HERE" you know that I'm a firm believer in becoming wiser through your life, and that no mistake really was...It was all a way to get to who you are and to grow, to learn and to become who you are-today.

Would I truly think that if I could just walk into some doctor's office and erase someone who hurt me deeply, someone I couldn't get over, someone who didn't love me the way I loved them?

Honestly-----

I don't know.

There's been many times when I wished I could swallow a pill and forget someone. Not just something that happened with that someone, but that entire person. Just because it was too painful. Just because it was that-THAT-hard. Swallow a pill, yes I would.

But I would because it isn't possible. Beyond having a lobotomy, that just isn't possible. Beyond having amnesia, that just isn't possible. But you know what is possible? If your lucky?


Time.


No, of course you can never forget someone completely. No you can never forget the pain or sorrow or longing or neglect. But with time, through life and all of the things we need to do and have to do and just DO, time goes by and time makes it a little bit better.

Someones face-the details, they aren't as pure. The words spoken-or unspoken...They don't hang in the air as they once did.

I don't know. I don't know if I would dial up Lacuna and get right on that every time it was too difficult. But I don't know who that would make me either.

But isn't that the entire question of the movie? Where would I be? Would I still find you and start loving you again anyway?

Joel and Clementine did. They had a relationship, it was good and bad and they were different and at one point it became----done.

She erased him, he figured it out and he in turn erased her. But in the middle of the erasing he realized that he didn't want to forget her. He loved his memories of her and he did everything he could to hold onto her.

He woke up, never knew she existed and then somehow, found her again.

Oh yes, it was confusing. But, the first time or the second time around-isn't it always?

~V~